Pawprints
Jay Dancing Bear
Contents
Secretions
I understand
Andrew Molera State
Park
Ghost
Demanding Perfection
Being Here Now
Where is peace, pt.
2
Emotional Roller Coaster
Insomnia
Uncle Jay’s Advice ,
Part 1
Uncle Jay’s Advice,
Part 2
Uncle Jay’s Advice,
Part 3
Life
Judge Me
My Self Image
Let’s be real
What I am good for and
what I am not
The Goddess Speaks
Hungry Cat
nothing special
nothing special
everything special
Secretions
Life is an inherently
messy process
People sweat, cry,
bleed, come
childbirth and death,
do you think they are neat?
if you killed every germ in your body you’d be dead
when you wash the
dishes, sterilizing them so nicely
do you think about
the toxic chemicals in the dish soap
soap which doesn’t
rinse off very well
You have a body,
enjoy it.
Make the best of
it
As much as you try to pretend that if you’re not fully in your body you won’t die, well
you will die
so you might as well live
Amin
I understand
I understand staying
in bed late in the morning because there really isn’t anything to get up for,
or at least you think
there isn’t
I understand that
if you do get up,
focus on the birds
singing and the sky overhead
even if it's raining
and the sky is gray
there is joy for
you in your life
if you will accept
it
Andrew Molera State Park
waking up in the
morning, going down to the river
see all the pawprints
in the sand, the story of the night
where the animals
have walked around
now it’s day and
the people will stomp around
but
when nighttime comes
the animals will
come out
and raid our food if they can
Ghost
I glide around silently
like a ghost
walking around my
empty house
no one in it but
me
no girlfriend
no roommate
I see myself in the
bathroom mirror as I go in to pee
Learning to be alone
by being alone
Demanding Perfection
Demanding perfection
of the world
the world is perfect
but not by human
standards
our minds are troubled
so many shoulds and
shouldn’ts
problems to solve
things that need
changing
the flowers are very
beautiful today
and timelessness
exists
only in this moment
Being Here Now
Being here now is
rather easy
on the road
where it’s all new
and exciting
being here now is
not so easy
at home
with the phone ringing
and bills to pay
Where is peace? pt. 2
My room
I clean it up
it gets messy again
My kitchen
I wash the dishes,
I eat
more dishes to wash
My body
I get in shape
enjoy life a bit
all of a sudden
out of shape again
My life
I solve the problems
of the moment
Have a cup of coffee
and
another bill in the
mail
another fender bender
something or other
So
I guess what my question is, is
where is peace ?
how can it last?
Emotional Roller Coaster
On an emotional roller
coaster
today was a good
day
today was a terrible
day
Business is great
business sucks
Behind all the events
and the feelings they trigger
what is eternal?
What can I count
on?
So many ups and downs
it’s almost as exhausting
going up as coming down
maybe I’ll just find
a quiet cave to rest
watch myself ride
through the valleys and peaks,
crests, troughs
rise at 4 AM, eat
an apple, do practices, bathe, work,
eat at 11AM, rest,
work, do practices, go to sleep at 9
a zen center of a
life
here in this world
with all the whirling
madness of distractions
even so, I will cleave
to my center as best I can
So be it
Insomnia
Shadows on the wall
in the middle of the night
coffee drunk too
late keeps me awake
across the street
the school is lit up brightly
Heat on, living room
warm
Books piled high
TV off
Letters half written
Food consumed
Bed waiting
Amin
Uncle Jay’s Advice,
part1so you’re looking for a woman
look for a woman
who likes to eat
women who like to
eat like to fuck
a woman who picks
daintily at her food
will not fuck you
as much
as a woman who enjoys
the sensual side of life
a woman who likes
to sweat
also, a woman who
likes to eat is more likely to enjoy cooking at home, with the bedroom very
close
and the floor much
closer
remember, it’s a
much shorter distance
from the kitchen
to the bedroom
than from the restaurant
to the bedroom
and you really don’t
want to wait
do you?
Uncle Jay’s Advice, part 2
So you’re looking for a woman
A woman who needs
to be impressed
probably has a low
self esteem
or else is an egotist
either way, not worth
the trouble
A woman with heart
will want you for
you, not your tinsel
that woman is worth
being with
Uncle Jay’s Advice, part 3
So you want a woman
Learn to touch
learn to feel
learn to laugh
learn to breathe
learn to listen
learn to love
even if you don’t
look like much
have no money, no
car
women will still
be attracted
even if they don’t
know why
Life
Is Life a joy to
be lived
or a problem to be
solved
a series of dangerous
reefs to be navigated
with no rest, only
more dangerous reefs
knowing always that
at some point
all our boats will
sink and all aboard will be lost
the hand on the tiller
is it our hand
or a great unseen
hand
where are we going,
or trying to go
what will we find
if we get there
does life love us
is life an unexcelled
torture chamber
God the master torturer
hooded, dressed in
black
whip in one hand,
branding iron in the other
our purpose
to suffer for his
amusement
the little snatches
of joy in our life just teasers
it has been said
the everyday perception
and the mystic perception
are different
and the surest sign
of the presence of god
is joy
is the glass half
empty or half full
even if there are
only a few drops
do we enjoy them
in a timeless, peaceful
state
which is beyond a
doubt
available to us
if only we train
ourselves to access it
bliss in every moment
what fools we seem,
but blissful
deluded, no,
just happy for no
reason at all
resting in the lotus
of the heart
the connection to
the heart of love which is
the heart of the
universe
Amin
Judge me
Please judge me
be my authority
so I know how I’m doing
my self image
my self image took
a beating last night
I won’t tell you
the details but
it was bad
still, life goes on
Let’s Be Real
Today I made progress
of course that was
in comparison to yesterday when I
and twenty years
ago when I
and of course in
my last lifetime I
profit and loss
gain and backsliding
what a scam
what a way to keep
off balance
always uncertain
so fucking what about
comparisons
today is today
now is now
it’s the only time
we’re real
so let’s not be ghosts
let’s be real
What I am good for and what I am not
I am a lover, a poet, a musician
I will sing to you
give you wonderful
orgasms
listen compassionately
and with deep understanding
I will introduce
you to lands of the spirit
read to you from
books of wisdom
and speak truth
I am messy
I am terrified of
being "tied down"
I will hold back
my emotions
Let us enjoy each other for a while, then part friends
Amin
The Goddess Speaks
I have come from
the deep dark forest
walking along sunlit
trails
to bring you a gift
may your hair redden
and burn with passion for me
your fingers touch
and caress me
may your eyes fill
with the wonders of my breasts
your nose with my
scent
may your lips sing
to me songs of praise
I am the goddess,
your goddess
worship me
according to the
sacred rites of love
according to your
nature
Do you love knowledge
whatever it is you
love
in whatever manner
express that love
offer this to me
I open myself to
you
if you come with
love
I nurture you
if you love
I teach you
I embrace you, do
not be afraid
Hungry Cat
The form of the world
is sometimes beautiful
sometimes hideous
and
I am sometimes inspired
sometimes stupid
you, my friend
who are you?
are you a figment
of my imagination?
have I created you
as part of my reality?
the pleasure or pain
thatI say you bring to me
that great fuck last
night
that terrible fight
last week
the government, death,
taxes, organic gardens
_________(fill in
the blanks)
the cat is hungry
i need to go now
goodbye
i’ll see you again